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Chapter 24
At the close of three weeks, I was able to quit my chamber, and move about
the house. And on thefirst occasion of my sitting up in the evening, I
asked Catherine to read to me, because my eyeswere weak. We were in the
library, the master having gone to bed: she consented, ratherunwillingly,
I fancied; and imagining my sort of books did not suit her, I bid her place
herself in thechoice of what she perused. She selected one of her own
favourites, and got forward steadily aboutan hour; then came frequent
questions.
`Ellen, are not you tired? Hadn't you better lie down now? You'll be sick,
keeping up so long,Ellen.'
`No, no, dear, I'm not tired,' I returned continually.
Perceiving me immovable, she essayed another method of showing her
disrelish for her occupation.It changed to yawning, and stretching, and:
`Ellen, I'm tired.'
`Give over then and talk,' I answered.
That was worse: she fretted and sighed, and liked at her watch till eight,
and finally went to herroom, completely overdone with sleep; judging by
her peevish, heavy look, and the constantrubbing she inflicted on her eyes.
The following night she seemed more impatient still; and on thethird from
recovering my company, she complained of a headache, and left me. I thought
herconduct odd; and having remained alone a long while, I resolved on going
and inquiring whether shewere better, and asking her to come and lie on
the sofa, instead of upstairs in the dark. NoCatherine could I discover
upstairs, and none below. The servants affirmed they had not seen her.
Ilistened at Mr Edgar's door; all was silence. I returned to her apartment,
extinguished my candle,and seated myself in the window.
The moon shone bright; a sprinkling of snow covered the ground, and I
reflected that she might,possibly, have taken it into her head to walk
about the garden, for refreshment. I did detect a figurecreeping along
the inner fence of the park; but it was not my young mistress: on its
emerging into thelight, I recognized one of the grooms. He stood a
considerable period, viewing the carriage-roadthrough the grounds; then
started off at a brisk pace, as if he had detected something, andreappeared
presently, leading miss's pony; and there she was, just dismounted, and
walking by itsside. The man took his charge stealthily across the grass
towards the stable. Cathy entered by thecasement window of the
drawing-room, and glided noiselessly up to where I awaited her. She putthe
door gently to, slipped off her snowy shoes, untied her hat, and was
proceeding, unconscious ofmy espionage, to lay aside her mantle, when I
suddenly rose and revealed myself. The surprisepetrified her an instant:
she uttered an inarticulate exclamation, and stood fixed.
`My dear Miss Catherine,' I began, too vividly impressed by her recent
kindness to break into ascold, `where have you been riding out at this
hour? And why should you try to deceive me, bytelling a tale? Where have
you been? Speak.'
`To the bottom of the park,' she stammered. `I didn't tell a tale.'
`And nowhere else?' I demanded.
`No,' was the muttered reply.
`Oh, Catherine!' I cried sorrowfully. `You know you have been doing wrong,
or you wouldn't bedriven to uttering an untruth to me. That does grieve
me. I'd rather be three months ill, than hear youframe a deliberate lie.'
She sprang forward, and bursting into tears, threw her arms round my neck.
`Well, Ellen, I'm so afraid of you being angry,' she said. `Promise not
to be angry, and you shallknow the very truth: I hate to hide it.'
We sat down in the window-seat; I assured her I would not scold, whatever
her secret might be,and I guessed it of course; so she commenced:
`I've been to Wuthering Heights, Ellen, and I've never missed going a
day since you fell ill; exceptthrice before, and twice after you left your
room. I gave Michael books and pictures to prepareMinny every evening,
and to put her back in the stable: you mustn't scold him either, mind.
I was atthe Heights by half-past six, and generally stayed till half past
eight, and then galloped home. It wasnot to amuse myself that I went: I
was often wretched all the time. Now and then I was happy; oncein a week
perhaps. At first, I expected there would be sad work persuading you to
let me keep myword to Linton: for I had engaged to call again next day,
when we quitted him; but, as you stayedupstairs on the morrow, I escaped
that trouble; and while Michael was refastening the lock of thepark door
in the afternoon, I got possession of the key, and told him how my cousin
wished me tovisit him, because he was sick, and couldn't come to the Grange;
and how papa would object to mygoing: and then I negotiated with him about
the pony. He is fond of reading, and he thinks of leavingsoon to get married;
so he offered, if I would lend him books out of the library, to do what
Iwished: but I preferred giving him my own, and that satisfied him better.
`On my second visit, Linton seemed in lively spirits; and Zillah (that
is their housekeeper) made us aclean room and a good fire, and told us
that, as Joseph was out at a prayer meeting and HaretonEarnshaw was off
with his dogs--robbing our woods of pheasants, as I heard afterwards-
-we mightdo what we liked. She brought me some warm wine and gingerbread,
and appeared exceedinglygood-natured; and Linton sat in the armchair, and
I in the little rocking-chair on the hearthstone, andwe laughed and talked
so merrily, and found so much to say: we planned where we would go, andwhat
we would do in summer. I needn't repeat that, because you would call it
silly.
`One time, however, we were near quarrelling. He said the pleasantest
manner of spending a hotJuly day was lying from morning till evening on
a bank of heath in the middle of the moors, with thebees humming dreamily
about among the bloom, and the larks singing high up overhead, and theblue
sky and bright sun shining steadily and cloudlessly. That was his most
perfect idea of heaven'shappiness: mine was rocking in a rustling green
tree, with a west wind blowing, and bright whiteclouds flitting rapidly
above; and not only larks, but throstles, and blackbirds, and linnets,
andcuckoos pouring out music on every side, and the moors seen at a
distance, broken into cool duskydells; but close by great swells of long
grass undulating in waves to the breeze; and woods andsounding water, and
the whole world awake and wild with joy. He wanted all to lie in an ecstasy
ofpeace; I wanted all to sparkle and dance in a glorious jubilee. I said
his heaven would be only halfalive; and he said mine would be drunk: I
said I should fall asleep in his; and he said he could notbreathe in mine,
and began to grow very snappish. At last, we agreed to try both, as soon
as theright weather came; and then we kissed each other and were friends.
`After sitting still an hour, I looked at the great room with its smooth
uncarpeted floor, and thoughthow nice it would be to play in, if we removed
the table; and I asked Linton to call Zillah in to helpus, and we'd have
a game at blind-man's buff; she should try to catch us: you used to, you
know,Ellen. He wouldn't: there was no pleasure in it, he said; but he
consented to play at ball with me.We found two in a cupboard, among a heap
of old toys, tops, and hoops, and battledores, andshuttlecocks. One was
marked C., and the other H.; I wished to have the C., because that stoodfor
Catherine, and the H. might be for Heathcliff, his name; but the bran came
out of H., and Lintondidn't like it. I beat him constantly, and he got
cross again, and coughed, and returned to his chair.That night, though,
he easily recovered his good humour: he was charmed with two or three
prettysongs--your songs, Ellen; and when I was obliged to go, he begged
and entreated me to come thefollowing evening; and I promised. Minny and
I went flying home as light as air; and I dreamt ofWuthering Heights and
my sweet, darling cousin, till morning.
`On the morrow I was sad; partly because you were poorly, and partly that
I wished my fatherknew, and approved of my excursions: but it was beautiful
moonlight after tea; and, as I rode on,the gloom cleared. I shall have
another happy evening, I thought to myself: and what delights memore, my
pretty Linton will. I trotted up their garden, and was turning round to
the back, when thatfellow Earnshaw met me, took my bridle, and bid me go
in by the front entrance. He patted Minny'sneck, and said she was a bonny
beast, and appeared as if he wanted me to speak to him. I onlytold him
to leave my horse alone, or else it would kick him. He answered in his
vulgar accent, ``Itwouldn't do much hurt if it did"; and surveyed its legs
with a smile. I was half inclined to make it try;however, he moved off
to open the door, and, as he raised the latch, he looked up to the
inscriptionabove, and said, with a stupid mixture of awkwardness and
elation:
` ``Miss Catherine! I can read yon, nah.''
` ``Wonderful,'' I exclaimed. ``Pray let us hear you--you are grown
clever!''
`He spelt, and drawled over by syllables, the name--"Hareton Earnshaw".
` ``And the figures?'' I cried encouragingly, perceiving that he came
to a dead halt.
` ``I cannot tell them yet,'' he answered.
``Oh, you dunce!'' I said, laughing heartily at his failure.
`The fool stared, with a grin hovering about his lips, and a scowl
gathering over his eyes, as ifuncertain whether he might not join in my
mirth: whether it were not pleasant familiarity, or what itreally was,
contempt. I settled his doubts, by suddenly retrieving my gravity and
desiring him towalk away, for I came to see Linton, not him. He reddened--I
saw that by the moonlight--droppedhis hand from the latch, and skulked
off, a picture of mortified vanity. He imagined himself to be
asaccomplished as Linton, I suppose, because he could spell his own name;
and was marvellouslydiscomfited that I didn't think the same.'
`Stop, Miss Catherine, dear!' I interrupted. `I shall not scold, but I
don't like your conduct there. Ifyou had remembered that Hareton was your
cousin as much as Master Heathcliff, you would havefelt how improper it
was to behave in that way. At least, it was praiseworthy ambition for him
todesire to be as accomplished as Linton; and probably he did not learn
merely to show off: you hadmade him ashamed of his ignorance before, I
have no doubt; and he wished to remedy it and pleaseyou. To sneer at his
imperfect attempt was very bad breeding. Had you been brought up in
hiscircumstances, would you be less rude? He was as quick and as
intelligent a child as ever you were;and I'm hurt that he should be
despised now, because that base Heathcliff has treated him sounjustly.'
`Well, Ellen, you won't cry about it, will you?' she exclaimed, surprised
at my earnestness. `Butwait, and you shall hear if he conned his A B C
to please me; and if it were worth while being civilto the brute. I entered;
Linton was lying on the settle, and half got up to welcome me.
` ``I'm ill tonight, Catherine, love,'' he said; ``and you must have all
the talk, and let me listen.Come, and sit by me. I was sure you wouldn't
break your word, and I'll make you promise again,before you go.''
`I knew now that I mustn't tease him, as he `was ill; and I spoke softly
and put no questions, andavoided irritating him in any way. I had brought
some of my nicest books for him; he asked me toread a little of one, and
I was about to comply, when Earnshaw burst the door open: havinggathered
venom with reflection. He advanced direct to us, seized Linton by the arm,
and swung himoff the seat.
``Get to thy own room!'' he said, in a voice almost inarticulate with
passion; and his face lookedswelled and furious. ``Take her there if she
comes to see thee: thou shalln't keep me out of this.Begone wi' ye both!''
`He swore at us, and left Linton no time to answer, nearly throwing him
into the kitchen; and heclenched his fist as I followed, seemingly longing
to knock me down. I was afraid for a moment,and I let one volume fall;
he kicked it after me, and shut us out. I heard a malignant, crackly laughby
the fire, and turning, beheld that odious Joseph standing rubbing his bony
hands, and quivering.
``Aw wer sure he'd sarve ye eht! He's a grand lad! He's getten t' raight
sperrit in him! Heknaws--Aye, he knaws, as weel as Aw do, who sud be
t'maister yonder--Ech, ech, ech! He madye skift properly! Ech, ech, ech!''
``Where must we go?'' I said to my cousin, disregarding the old wretch's
mockery.
`Linton was white and trembling. He was not pretty then, Ellen: oh no!
he looked frightful; for histhin face and large eyes were wrought into
an expression of frantic, powerless fury. He grasped thehandle of the door,
and shook it: it was fastened inside.
``If you don't let me in I'll kill you!--If you don't let me in, I'll
kill you!'' he rather shrieked than said.``Devil! devil!--I'll kill
you--I'll kill you!''
`Joseph uttered his croaking laugh again.
``Thear, that's t' father!'' he cried. ``That's father! We've alIas
summut uh orther side in us. Niverheed Hareton, lad--dunnut be `feard--he
cannot get at thee!''
`I took hold of Linton's hands, and tried to pull him away; but he shrieked
so shockingly that Idared not proceed. At last his cries were choked by
a dreadful fit of coughing; blood gushed fromhis mouth, and he fell on
the ground. I ran into the yard, sick with terror; and called for Zillah,
asloud as I could. She soon heard me: she was milking the cows in a shed
behind the barn, `andhurrying from her work, she inquired what there was
to do? I hadn't breath to explain; dragging herin, I looked about for
Linton. Earnshaw had come out to examine the mischief he had caused, andhe
was then conveying the poor thing upstairs. Zillah and I ascended after
him; but he stopped meat the top of the steps, and said I shouldn't go
in: I must go home. I exclaimed that he had killedLinton, and I would enter.
Joseph locked the door, and declared I should do ``no sich stuff'',
andasked me whether I were ``bahn to be as mad as him''. I stood crying,
till the housekeeperreappeared. She affirmed he would be better in a bit,
but he couldn't do with that shrieking and din;and she took me, and nearly
carried me into the house.
`Ellen, I was ready to tear my hair off my head! I sobbed and wept so
that my eyes were almostblind; and the ruffian you have such sympathy with
stood opposite: presuming every now and thento bid me ``wisht'', and
denying that it was his fault; and, finally, frightened by my assertions
that Iwould tell papa, and that he should be put in prison and hanged,
he commenced blubbering himself,and hurried out to hide his cowardly
agitation. Still, I was not rid of him: when at length theycompelled me
to depart, and I had got some hundred yards off the premises, he suddenly
issuedfrom the shadow of the roadside, and checked Minny and took hold
of me.
``Miss Catherine, I'm ill grieved,'' he began, ``but it's rayther too
bad--''
`I gave him a cut with my whip, thinking perhaps he would murder me. He
let go, thundering one ofhis horrid curses, and I galloped home more than
half out of my senses.
`I didn't bid you good night that evening, and I didn't go to Wuthering
Heights the next: I wished to,exceedingly; but I was strangely excited,
and dreaded to hear that Linton was dead, sometimes;and sometimes
shuddered at the thought of encountering Hareton. On the third day I took
courage:at least, I couldn't bear longer suspense, and stole off once more.
I went at five o'clock, andwalked; fancying I might manage to creep into
the house, and up to Linton's room, unobserved.However, the dogs gave
notice of my approach. Zillah received me, and saying, ``the lad
wasmending nicely'', showed me into a small, tidy, carpeted apartment,
where, to my inexpressible joy,I beheld Linton laid on a little sofa,
reading one of my books. But he would neither speak to me norlook at me,
through a whole hour, Ellen: he has such an unhappy temper. And what
quiteconfounded me, when he did open his mouth, it was to utter the
falsehood that I had occasioned theuproar, and Hareton was not to blame!
Unable to reply, except passionately, I got up and walkedfrom the room.
He sent after me a faint ``Catherine!'' He did not reckon on being answered
so: butI wouldn't turn back; and the morrow was the second day on which
I stayed at home, nearlydetermined to visit him no more. But it was so
miserable going to bed and getting up, and neverhearing anything about
him, that my resolution melted into air before it was properly formed.
It hadappeared wrong to take the journey once; now it seemed wrong to
refrain. Michael came to ask ifhe must saddle Minny; I said ``Yes'', and
considered myself doing a duty as she bore me over thehills. I was forced
to pass the front windows to get to the court: it was no use trying to
conceal mypresence.
``Young master is in the house,'' said Zillah, as she saw me making for
the parlour. I went in;Earnshaw was there also, but he quitted the room
directly. Linton sat in the great armchair halfasleep; walking up to the
fire, I began in a serious tone, partly meaning it to be true:
``As you don't like me, Linton, and as you think I come on purpose to
hurt you, and pretend that Ido so every time, this is our last meeting:
let us say goodbye; and tell Mr Heathcliff that you have nowish to see
me, and that he mustn't invent any more falsehoods on the subject.''
` ``Sit down and take your hat off, Catherine,'' he answered. ``You are
so much happier than I am,you ought to be better. Papa talks enough of
my defects, and shows enough scorn of me, to make itnatural I should doubt
myself. I doubt whether I am not altogether as worthless as he calls
me,frequently; and then I feel so cross and bitter, I hate everybody! I
am worthless, and bad in temper,and bad in spirit, almost always; and,
if you choose, you may say goodbye: you'll get rid of anannoyance. Only,
Catherine, do me this justice: believe that if I might be as sweet, and
as kind, andas good as you are, I would be; as willingly, and more so,
than as happy and as healthy. Andbelieve that your kindness has made me
love you deeper than if I deserved your love: and though Icouldn't, and
cannot help showing my nature to you, I regret it and repent it; and shall
regret andrepent it till I die!''
`I felt he spoke the truth; and I felt I must forgive him: and, though
he should quarrel the nextmoment, I must forgive him again. We were
reconciled; but we cried, both of us, the whole time Istayed: not entirely
for sorrow; yet I was sorry Linton had that distorted nature. He'll never
let hisfriends be at ease, and he'll never be at ease himself! I have always
gone to his little parlour, sincethat night; because his father returned
the day after.
`About three times, I think, we have been merry and hopeful, as we were
the first evening; the restof my visits were dreary and troubled: now with
his selfishness and spite, and now with hissufferings: but I've learned
to endure the former with nearly as little resentment as the latter.
MrHeathcliff purposely avoids me:
I have hardly seen him at all. Last Sunday, indeed, coming earlier than
usual, I heard him abusingpoor Linton, cruelly, for his conduct of the
night before. I can't tell how he knew of it, unless helistened. Linton
had certainly behaved provokingly: however, it was the business of nobody
but me,and I interrupted Mr Heathcliff's lecture by entering and telling
him so. He burst into a laugh, andwent away, saying he was glad I took
that view of the matter. Since then, I've told Linton he mustwhisper his
bitter things. Now Ellen, you have heard all; and I can't be prevented
from going toWuthering Heights except by inflicting misery on two people;
whereas, if you'll only not tell papa,my going need disturb the
tranquillity of none. You'll not tell, will you? It will be very heartless
if youdo.'
`I'll make up my mind on that point by tomorrow, Miss Catherine,' I
replied. `It requires somestudy; and so I'll leave you to your rest, and
go think it over.'
I thought it over aloud, in my master's presence; walking straight from
her room to his, and relatingthe whole story: with the exception of her
conversations with her cousin, and any mention ofHareton. Mr Linton was
alarmed and distressed, more than he would acknowledge to me. In
themorning, Catherine learnt my betrayal of her confidence, and she learnt
also that her secret visitswere to end. In vain she wept and writhed
against the interdict, and implored her father to have pityon Linton: all
she got to comfort her was a promise that he would write and give him leave
to cometo the Grange when he pleased; but explaining that he must no longer
expect to see Catherine atWuthering Heights. Perhaps, had he been aware
of his nephew's disposition and state of health, hewould have seen fit
to withhold even that slight consolation.
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