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A Painful Case
by James Joyce, "Dublins"
Mr James Duffy lived in Chapelizod because he wished to live as far as
possible
from the city of which he was a citizen and because he found all the other
suburbs of Dublin mean, modern, and pretentious. He lived in an old sombre
house, and from his windows he could look into the disused distillery or
upwards
along the shallow river on which Dublin is built. The lofty walls of his
uncarpeted room were free from pictures. He had himself bought every article
of
furniture in the room: a black iron bedstead, an iron wash-stand, four cane
chairs, a clothes-rack, a coal-scuttle, a fender and irons, and a square
table
on which lay a double desk. A bookcase had been made in an alcove by means of
shelves of white wood. The bed was clothed with white bedclothes and a black
and
scarlet rug covered the foot. A little hand-mirror hung above the wash-stand
and
during the day a white-shaded lamp stood as the sole ornament of the
mantelpiece. The books on the white wooden shelves were arranged from below
upwards according to bulk. A complete Wordsworth stood at one end of the
lowest
shelf and a copy of the Maynooth Catechism, sewn into the cloth cover of a
notebook, stood at one end of the top shelf. Writing materials were always on
the desk. In the desk lay a manuscript translation of Hauptmann's Michael
Kramer, the stage directions of which were written in purple ink, and a
little
sheaf of papers held together by a brass pin. In these sheets a sentence was
inscribed from time to time and, in an ironical moment, the headline of an
advertisement for Bile Beans had been pasted on to the first sheet. On
lifting
the lid of the desk a faint fragrance escaped - the fragrance of new
cedar-wood
pencils or a bottle of gum or of an over-ripe apple which might have been
left
there and forgotten.
Mr Duffy abhorred anything which betokened physical or mental disorder. A
medieval doctor would have called him saturnine. His face, which carried the
entire tale of his years, was of the brown tint of Dublin streets. On his
long
and rather large head grew dry black hair, and a tawny moustache did not
quite
cover an unamiable mouth. His cheekbones also gave his face a harsh
character;
but there was no harshness in the eyes which, looking at the world from under
their tawny eyebrows, gave the impression of a man ever alert to greet a
redeeming instinct in others but often disappointed. He lived at a little
distance from his body, regarding his own acts with doubtful side-glances. He
had an odd autobiographical habit which led him to compose in his mind from
time
to time a short sentence about himself containing a subject in the third
person
and a predicate in the past tense. He never gave aims to beggars, and walked
firmly, carrying a stout hazel.
He had been for many years cashier of a private bank in Baggot Street. Every
morning he came in from Chapelizod by tram. At midday he went to Dan Burke's
and
took his lunch a bottle of lager beer and a small trayful of arrowroot
biscuits.
At four o'clock he was set free. He dined in an eating-house in George's
Street
where he felt himself safe from the society of Dublin's gilded youth and
where
there was a certain plain honesty in the bill of fare. His evenings were
spent
either before his landlady's piano or roaming about the outskirts of the
city.
His liking for Mozart's music brought him sometimes to an opera or a concert:
these were the only dissipations of his life.
He had neither companions nor friends, church nor creed. He lived his
spiritual
life without any communion with others, visiting his relatives at Christmas
and
escorting them to the cemetery when they died. He performed these two social
duties for old dignity's sake, but conceded nothing further to the
conventions
which regulate the civic life. He allowed himself to think that in certain
circumstances he would rob his bank but, as these circumstances never arose,
his
life rolled out evenly - an adventureless tale.
One evening he found himself sitting beside two ladies in the Rotunda. The
house, thinly peopled and silent, gave distressing prophecy of failure. The
lady
who sat next him looked round at the deserted house once or twice and then
said:
`What a pity there is such a poor house tonight! It's so hard on people to
have
to sing to empty benches.'
He took the remark as an invitation to talk. He was surprised that she seemed
so
little awkward. While they talked he tried to fix her permanently in his
memory.
When he learned that the young girl beside her was her daughter he judged her
to
be a year or so younger than himself. Her face, which must have been
handsome,
had remained intelligent. It was an oval face with strongly marked features.
The
eyes were very dark blue and steady. Their gaze began with a defiant note,
but
was confused by what seemed a deliberate swoon of the pupil into the iris,
revealing for an instant a temperament of great sensibility. The pupil
reasserted itself quickly, this half-disclosed nature fell again under the
reign
of prudence, and her astrakhan jacket, moulding a bosom of a certain
fullness,
struck the note of defiance more definitely.
He met her again a few weeks afterwards at a concert in Earlsfort Terrace and
seized the moments when her daughter's attention was diverted to become
intimate. She alluded once or twice to her husband, but her tone was not such
as
to make the allusion a warning. Her name was Mrs Sinico. Her husband's
great-great-grandfather had come from Leghorn. Her husband was captain of a
mercantile boat plying between Dublin and Holland; and they had one child.
Meeting her a third time by accident, he found courage to make an
appointment.
She came. This was the first of many meetings; they met always in the evening
and chose the most quiet quarters for their walks together. Mr Duffy,
however,
had a distaste for underhand ways and, finding that they were compelled to
meet
stealthily, he forced her to ask him to her house. Captain Sinico encouraged
his
visits, thinking that his daughter's hand was in question. He had dismissed
his
wife so sincerely from his gallery of pleasures that he did not suspect that
anyone else would take an interest in her. As the husband was often away and
the
daughter out giving music lessons, Mr Duffy had many opportunities of
enjoying
the lady's society. Neither he nor she had had any such adventure before and
neither was conscious of any incongruity. Little by little he entangled his
thoughts with hers. He lent her books, provided her with ideas, shared his
intellectual life with her. She listened to all.
Sometimes in return for his theories she gave out some fact of her own life.
With almost maternal solicitude she urged him to let his nature open to the
full: she became his confessor. He told her that for some time he had
assisted
at the meetings of an Irish Socialist Party, where he had felt himself a
unique
figure amidst a score of sober workmen in a garret lit by an inefficient
oil-lamp. When the party had divided into three sections, each under its own
leader and in its own garret, he had discontinued his attendances. The
workmen's
discussions, he said, were too timorous; the interest they took in the
question
of wages was inordinate. He felt that they were hard-featured realists and
that
they resented an exactitude which was the produce of a leisure not within
their
reach. No social revolution, he told her, would be likely to strike Dublin
for
some centuries.
She asked him why did he not write out his thoughts. For what? he asked her,
with careful scorn. To compete with phrasemongers, incapable of thinking
consecutively for sixty seconds? To submit himself to the criticisms of an
obtuse middle class which entrusted its morality to policemen and its fine
arts
to impresarios?
He went often to her little cottage outside Dublin; often they spent their
evenings alone. Little by little, as their thoughts entangled, they spoke of
subjects less remote. Her companionship was like a warm soil about an exotic.
Many times she allowed the dark to fall upon them, refraining from lighting
the
lamp. The dark discreet room, their isolation, the music that still vibrated
in
their ears united them. This union exalted him, wore away the rough edges of
his
character, emotionalized his mental life. Sometimes he caught himself
listening
to the sound of his own voice. He thought that in her eyes he would ascend to
an
angelical stature; and, as he attached the fervent nature of his companion
more
and more closely to him, he heard the strange impersonal voice which he
recognized as his own, insisting on the soul'S incurable loneliness. We
cannot
give ourselves, it said: we are our own. The end of these discourses was that
one night, during which she had shown every sign of unusual excitement, Mrs
Sinico caught up his hand passionately and pressed it to her cheek.
Mr Duffy was very much surprised. Her interpretation of his words
disillusioned
him. He did not visit her for a week; then he wrote to her asking her to meet
him. As he did not wish their last interview to be troubled by the influence
of
their ruined confessional they met in a little cakeshop near the Parkgate. It
was cold autumn weather, but in spite of the cold they wandered up and down
the
roads of the Park for nearly three hours. They agreed to break off their
intercourse: every bond, he said, is a bond to sorrow. When they came out of
the
Park they walked in silence towards the tram; but here she began to tremble
so
violently that, fearing another collapse on her part, he bade her good-bye
quickly and left her. A few days later he received a parcel containing his
books
and music.
Four years passed. Mr Duffy returned to his even way of life. His room still
bore witness of the orderliness of his mind. Some new pieces of music
encumbered
the music-stand in the lower room and on his shelves stood two volumes by
Nietzsche: Thus Spake Zarathustra and The Gay Science. He wrote seldom in the
sheaf of papers which lay in his desk. One of his sentences, written two
months
after his last interview with Mrs Sinico, read: Love between man and woman is
impossible because there must not be sexual intercourse, and friendship
between
man and woman is impossible because there must be sexual intercourse. He kept
away from concerts lest he should meet her. His father died; the junior
partner
of the bank retired. And still every morning he went into the city by tram
and
every evening walked home from the city after having dined moderately in
George's Street and read the evening paper for dessert.
One evening as he was about to put a morsel of corned beef and cabbage into
his
mouth his hand stopped. His eyes fixed themselves on a paragraph in the
evening
paper which he had propped against the water-carafe. He replaced the morsel
of
food on his plate and read the paragraph attentively. Then he drank a glass
of
water, pushed his plate to one side, doubled the paper down before him
between
his elbows and read the paragraph over and over again. The cabbage began to
deposit a cold white grease on his plate. The girl came over to him to ask
was
his dinner not properly cooked. He said it was very good and ate a few
mouthfuls
of it with difficulty. Then he paid his bill and went out.
He walked along quickly through the November twilight, his stout hazel stick
striking the ground regularly, the fringe of the buff Mail peeping out of a
side-pocket of his tight reefer overcoat. On the lonely road which leads from
the Parkgate to Chapelizod he slackened his pace. His stick struck the ground
less emphatically, and his breath, issuing irregularly, almost with a sighing
sound, condensed in the wintry air. When he reached his house he went up at
once
to his bedroom and, taking the paper from his pocket, read the paragraph
again
by the failing light of the window. He read it not aloud, but moving his lips
as
a priest does when he reads the prayers Secreto. This was the paragraph:
DEATH OF A LADY AT SYDNEY PARADE
A PAINFUL CASE
Today at the City of Dublin Hospital the Deputy Coroner (in the absence
of
Mr Leverett) held an inquest on the body of Mrs Emily Sinico, aged
forty-three years, who was killed at Sydney Parade Station yesterday
evening. The evidence showed that the deceased lady, while attempting to
cross the line, was knocked down by the engine of the ten o'clock slow
train
from Kingstown, thereby sustaining injuries of the head and right side
which
led to her death.
James Lennon, driver of the engine, stated that he had been in the
employment of the railway company for fifteen years. On hearing the
guard's
whistle he set the train in motion and a second or two afterwards brought
it
to rest in response to loud cries. The train was going slowly.
P. Dunne, railway porter, stated that as the train was about to start he
observed a woman attempting to cross the lines. He ran towards her and
shouted, but, before he could reach her, she was caught by the buffer of
the
engine and fell to the ground.
A juror. `You saw the lady fall?'
Witness. `Yes.'
Police-Sergeant Croly deposed that when he arrived he found the deceased
lying on the platform apparently dead. He ha-the body taken to the
waiting-room pending the arrival of the ambulance.
Constable 57 corroborated.
Dr Halpin, assistant house-surgeon of the City of Dublin Hospital, stated
that the deceased had two lower ribs fractured and had sustained severe
contusions of the right shoulder. The right side of the head had been
injured in the fall. The injuries were not sufficient to have caused
death
in a normal person. Death, in his opinion, had been probably due to shock
and sudden failure of the heart's action.
Mr H. B. Patterson Finlay, on behalf of the railway company, expressed
his
deep regret at the accident. The company had always taken every
precaution
to prevent people crossing the lines except by the bridges, both by
placing
notices in every station and by the use of patent spring gates at level
crossings. The deceased had been in the habit of crossing the lines late
at
night from platform to platform and, in view of certain other
circumstances
of the case, he did not think the railway officials were to blame.
Captain Sinico, of Leoville, Sydney Parade, husband of the deceased, also
gave evidence. He stated that the deceased was his wife. He was not in
Dublin at the time of the accident as he had arrived only that morning
from
Rotterdam. They had been married for twenty-two years and had lived
happily
until about two years ago, when his wife began to be rather intemperate
in
her habits.
Miss Mary Sinico said that of late her mother had been in the habit of
going
out at night to buy spirits. She, witness, had often tried to reason with
her mother and had induced her to join a League. She was not at home
until
an hour after the accident.
The jury returned a verdict in accordance with the medical evidence and
exonerated Lennon from all blame.
The Deputy-Coroner said it was a most painful case, and expressed great
sympathy with Captain Sinico and his daughter. He urged on the railway
company to take strong measures to prevent the possibility of similar
accidents in the future. No blame attached to anyone.
Mr Duffy raised his eyes from the paper and gazed out of his window on the
cheerless evening landscape. The river lay quiet beside the empty distillery
and
from time to time a light appeared in some house on the Lucan road. What an
end!
The whole narrative of her death revolted him and it revolted him to think
that
he had ever spoken to her of what he held sacred. The threadbare phrases, the
inane expressions of sympathy, the cautious words of a reporter won over to
conceal the details of a commonplace vulgar death attacked his stomach. Not
merely had she degraded herself; she had degraded him. He saw the squalid
tract
of her vice, miserable and malodorous. His soul's companion! He thought of
the
hobbling wretches whom he had seen carrying cans and bottles to be filled by
the
barman.
Just God, what an end! Evidently she had been unfit to live, without any
strength of purpose, an easy prey to habits, one of the wrecks on which
civilization has been reared. But that she could have sunk so low! Was it
possible he had deceived himself so utterly about her? He remembered her
outburst of that night and interpreted it in a harsher sense than he had ever
done. He had no difficulty now in approving of the course he had taken.
As the light failed and his memory began to wander he thought her hand
touched
his. The shock which had first attacked his stomach was now attacking his
nerves. He put on his overcoat and hat quickly and went out. The cold air met
him on the threshold; it crept into the sleeves of his coat. When he came to
the
public-house at Chapelizod Bridge he went in and ordered a hot punch.
The proprietor served him obsequiously but did not venture to talk. There
were
five or six working-men in the shop discussing the value of a gentleman's
estate
in County Kildare. They drank at intervals from their huge pint tumblers and
smoked, spitting often on the floor and sometimes dragging the sawdust over
their spits with their heavy boots. Mr Duffy sat on his stool and gazed at
them
without seeing or hearing them. After a while they went out and he called for
another punch. He sat a long time over it. The shop was very quiet. The
proprietor sprawled on the counter reading the Herald and yawning. Now and
again
a tram was heard swishing along the lonely road outside.
As he sat there, living over his life with her and evoking alternately the
two
images in which he now conceived her, he realized that she was dead, that she
had ceased to exist, that she had become a memory. He began to feel ill at
ease.
He asked himself what else could he have done. He could not have carried on a
comedy of deception with her; he could not have lived with her openly. He had
done what seemed to him best. How was he to blame? Now that she was gone he
understood how lonely her life must have been, sitting night after night,
alone
in that room. His life would be lonely too until he, too, died, ceased to
exist,
became a memory - if anyone remembered him.
It was after nine o'clock when he left the shop. The night was cold and
gloomy.
He entered the Park by the first gate and walked along under the gaunt trees.
He
walked through the bleak alleys where they had walked four years before. She
seemed to be near him in the darkness. At moments he seemed to feel her voice
touch his ear, her hand touch his. He stood still to listen. Why had he
withheld
life from her? Why had he sentenced her to death? He felt his moral nature
falling to pieces.
When he gained the crest of the Magazine Hill he halted and looked along the
river towards Dublin, the lights of which burned redly and hospitably in the
cold night. He looked down the slope and, at the base, in the shadow of the
wall
of the Park, he saw some human figures lying. Those venal and furtive loves
filled him with despair. He gnawed the rectitude of his life; he felt that he
had been outcast from life's feast. One human being had seemed to love him
and
he had denied her life and happiness: he had sentenced her to ignominy, a
death
Of shame. He knew that the prostrate creatures down by the wall were watching
him and wished him gone. No one wanted him; he was outcast from life's feast.
He
turned his eyes to the grey gleaming river, winding along towards Dublin.
Beyond
the river he saw a goods train winding out of Kingsbridge Station, like a
worm
with a fiery head winding through the darkness, obstinately and laboriously.
It
passed slowly out of sight; but still he heard in his ears the laborious
drone
of the engine reiterating the syllables of her name.
He turned back the way he had come, the rhythm of the engine pounding in his
ears. He began to doubt the reality of what memory told him. He halted under
a
tree and allowed the rhythm to die away. He could not feel her near him in
the
darkness nor her voice touch his ear. He waited for some minutes listening.
He
could hear nothing: the night was perfectly silent. He listened again:
perfectly
silent. He felt that he was alone.
--
The Great Gatsby
The Beautiful and Damned
Tender is the Night
This Side of Paradise
The Last Tycoon
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