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In the Pod Bay
`Walter - I'm worried about Heywood.'
`I know, Tanya - but what can we do?'
Curnow had never seen Commander Orlova in so indeci-
sive a mood; it made her seem much more appealing, de-
spite his prejudice against small women.
`I'm very fond of him, but that's not the reason. His - I
suppose gloom is the best word for it - is making everyone
miserable. Leonov has been a happy ship. I want to keep it
that way.'
`Why don't you talk to him? He respects you, and I'm
sure he'll do his best to snap out of it.'
`I intend to do just that. And if it doesn't work -
`Well?'
`There's one simple solution. What more can he do on
this trip? When we start back for home, he'll be in hiberna-
tion anyway. We could always - what do you say, jump the
gun on him.'
`Phew - the same dirty trick that Katerina played on me
He'd be mad when he woke up.'
`But also safely back on Earth, and very busy. I'm sure
he'd forgive us.'
`I don't think you're serious. Even if I backed you up,
Washington would raise hell. Besides, suppose something
happened, and we really need him badly? Isn't there a
two-week buffer period, before you can revive anyone
safely?'
`At Heywood's age, more like a month. Yes, we'd be...
committed. But what do you think could happen now? He's
done the job he was sent for-apart from keeping an eye on
us. And I'm sure you've been well briefed about that in some
obscure suburb of Virginia or Maryland.'
`I neither confirm nor deny. And frankly, I'm a lousy
undercover agent. I talk too much, and I hate Security. I've
fought all my life to keep my rating below Restricted.
Every time there was danger of being reclassified Confiden-
tial or, worse still, Secret, I'd go and create a scandal.
Though that's getting very difficult nowadays.'
`Walter, you're incorrupt- '
`Incorrigible?'
`Yes, that's the word I meant. But back to Heywood,
please. Would you like to talk to him first?'
`You mean - give him a pep talk? I'd rather help Katerina
drive in the needle. Our psychologies are too different. He
thinks I'm a loudmouthed clown.'
`Which you often are. But that's only to hide your real
feelings. Some of us have evolved the theory that deep
down inside you is a really nice person, struggling to get
Out.'
For once, Curnow was at a loss for words. Finally he
Mumbled : 'Oh, very well - I'll do my best. But don't expect
miracles; my profile gave me Z for tact. Where's he hiding
at the moment?'
`In the Pod Bay. He claims he's working on his final
report, but I don't believe it. He just wants to get away from
us all, and that's the quietest place.'
That was not the reason, though it was indeed an impor-
tant one. Unlike the carousel, where most of the action
aboard Discovery was then taking place, the Pod Bay was a
zero-gee environment.
Right at the beginning of the Space Age, men had disco-
vered the euphoria of weightlessness and remembered the
freedom they had lost when they left the ancient womb of
the sea. Beyond gravity, some of that freedom was re-
gained; with the loss of weight went many of the cares and
worries of Earth.
Heywood Floyd had not forgotten his sorrow, but it was
more bearable there. When he was able to look at the matter
dispassionately, he was surprised at the strength of his reac-
tion to an event not wholly unexpected. More than loss of
love was involved, though that was the worst part. The
blow had come when he was particularly vulnerable, at the
very moment when he was feeling a sense of anticlimax,
even Futility.
And he knew precisely why. He had achieved all that he
had been expected to do, thanks to the skill and cooperation
of his colleagues (he was letting them down, he knew, by
his present selfishness). If all went well - that litany of the
Space Age! - they would return to Earth with a cargo of
knowledge that no expedition had ever gathered before, and
a few years later even the once-lost Discovery would be
restored to her builders.
It was not enough. The overpowering enigma of Big
Brother remained out there, only a few kilometres away,
mocking all human aspirations and achievements. Just as its
analogue on the Moon had done, a decade ago, it had come
to life for a moment, then relapsed into stubborn inertness.
it was a closed door upon which they had hammered in
vain. Only David Bowman, it seemed, had ever found the
key.
Perhaps that explained the attraction he felt for the quiet
and sometimes even mysterious place. From there - from
that now empty launch cradle - Bowman had left on his
last mission, through the circular hatchway that led to
infinity.
He found the thought exhilarating rather than depressing;
certainly it helped to distract him from his personal prob-
lems. Nina's vanished twin was part of the history of space
exploration; it had travelled, in the words of the hoary old
cliche that always evoked a smile yet an acknowledgment
of Its fundamental truth, `where no man had gone
before...' Where was it now? Would he ever know?
He would sometimes sit for hours in the crowded but not
cramped little capsule, trying to collect his thoughts and
occasionally dictating notes; the other crew members res-
pected his privacy, and understood the reason for it. They
never came near the Pod Bay, and had no need to do so. Its
refurbishment was a job for the future, and some other
team.
Once or twice, when he had felt really depressed, he
found himself chinking: Suppose I ordered Hal to open the
Pod Bay doors, and set out along Dave Bowman's trail?
Would I be greeted by the miracle he saw and which Vasili
glimpsed a few weeks ago? It would solve all my
problems...
Even if the thought of Chris did not deter him, there
was an excellent reason why so suicidal a move was out
of the question. Nina was a very complex piece of equip-
ment; he could no more operate her than fly a fighter
aircraft.
He was not meant to be an intrepid explorer: that particu-
lar fantasy would remain unrealized.
Walter Curnow had seldom undertaken a mission with
more reluctance. He felt genuinely sorry for Floyd, but at
the same time a little impatient with the other's distress. His
own emotional life was broad but shallow; he had never put
all his eggs in one basket. More than once he had been told
that he spread himself too thin, and though he had never
regretted it, he was beginning to think it was time to settle
down.
He took the shortcut through the carousel control centre,
noting that the Maximum Speed Reset Indicator was still
flashing idiotically. A major part of his job was deciding
when warnings could be ignored, when they could be dealt
with at leisure - and when they had to be treated as real
emergencies. If he paid equal attention to all the ship's cries
for help, he would never get anything done.
He drifted along the narrow corridor that led to the Pod
Bay, propelling himself by occasional flicks against the
rungs on the tubular wall. The pressure gauge claimed that
there was vacuum on the other side of the airlock door, but
he knew better. It was a fail-safe situation; he could not have
opened the lock if the gauge were telling the truth.
The bay looked empty, now that two of the three pods
had long since gone. Only a few emergency lights were
operating, and on the far wall one of Hal's fish-eye lenses
was regarding him steadily. Curnow waved to it, but did
not speak. At Chandra's orders, all audio inputs were still
disconnected except for the one that only he used.
Floyd was sitting in the pod with his back to the open
hatch, dictating some notes, and he swung slowly around at
Curnow's deliberately noisy approach. For a moment the
two men regarded each other in silence, then Curnow
announced portentously, `Dr H. Floyd, I bear greetings
from our beloved captain. She considers it high time you
rejoined the civilized world.'
Floyd gave a wan smile, then a little laugh.
`Please return my compliments. I'm sorry I've been -
unsociable. I'll see you all at the next Six O Clock Soviet.'
Curnow relaxed; his approach had worked. Privately, he
considered Floyd something of a stuffed shirt, and had the
practical engineer's tolerant contempt for theoretical scien-
tists and bureaucrats. Since Floyd ranked high in both cat-
egories, he was an almost irresistible target far Curnow's
sometimes peculiar sense of humour. Nevertheless, the two
men had grown to respect and even admire each other.
Thankfully changing the subject, Curnow rapped on
Nina's brand-new hatch cover, straight from the spares
store and contrasting vividly with the rest of the space pod's
shabby exterior.
`I wonder when we'll send her out again,' he said. `And
who's going to ride in her this time. Any decisions?'
`No. Washington's got cold feet. Moscow says let's take a
chance. And Tanya wants to wait.'
`What do you think?'
`I agree with Tanya. We shouldn't interfere with Zagadka
until we're ready to leave. If anything goes wrong then, that
should improve the odds slightly.'
Curnow looked thoughtful, and unusually hesitant.
`What is it?' asked Floyd, sensing his change of mood.
`Don't ever give me away, but Max was thinking of a
little one-man expedition.'
`I can't believe he was serious. He wouldn't dare - Tanya
would have him clapped in irons.'
`That's what I told him, more or less.'
`I'm disappointed: I thought he was a little more mature.
After all, he is thirty-two!'
`Thirty-one. Anyway, I talked him out of it. I reminded
him that this was real life, not some stupid videodrama
where the hero sneaks out into space without telling his
companions and makes the Big Discovery.'
Now it was Floyd's turn to feel a little uncomfortable.
After all, he had been thinking on similar lines.
`Are you sure he won't try anything?'
`Two-hundred-per-cent sure. Remember your precau-
tions with Hal? I've already taken steps with Nina. Nobody
flies her without my permission.'
`I still can't believe it. Are you sure Max wasn't pulling
your leg?'
`His sense of humour isn't that subtle Besides, he was
pretty miserable at the time.'
`Oh - now I understand. It must have been when he had
that row with Zenia. I suppose he wanted to impress her.
Anyway, they seem to have got over it.'
`I'm afraid so,' Curnow answered wryly. Floyd could not
help smiling; Curnow noticed it, and started to chuckle,
which made Floyd laugh, which.
It was a splendid example of positive feedback in a high-
gain loop. Within seconds, they were both laughing uncon-
trollably.
The crisis was over. What was more, they had taken the
first step toward genuine friendship.
They had exchanged vulnerabilities.
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